‧₊˚♪ 𝄞₊˚⊹ hehe! lilly gave me the log in to the website…. time to talk about the real creative genius here: fuzzy. ‧₊˚♪ 𝄞₊˚⊹
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✮ ⋆ ˚｡𖦹 ⋆｡°✩ i’m gonna give you a wikipedia style run down of the life i have lived so you can understand how i’ve become the fuzzball that i am today! ✮ ⋆ ˚｡𖦹 ⋆｡°✩
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₊✩‧₊˚౨ৎ˚₊✩‧₊ Early Life ₊✩‧₊˚౨ৎ˚₊✩‧₊
i grew up in a small-ish town in the north-west near to manchester! growing up i always had friends but i was absolutely not one of the popular kids. i found my solace in creating art, and started writing poetry when i was sixteen. that was around the time i had to make some big life changing decisions, and i started feeling properly anxious for the fist time. my writing helped me through that hugely.
lockdown happened and that’s when the anxiety got really bad. my fuzz started to matt because i wasn’t looking after myself mentally or physically and i knew at that point that this was depression. i wrote every day and started seeing a therapist. slowly i built myself back up, and ended up in a friendship group that really helped me get out of my shell. which leads me nicely on to…
(◞‸◟,) Evil People (◞‸◟,)
throughout my late teens and early twenties, there have been many evil people that i have written sappy love poems about. i ended up up in a year and a half long relationship with a person in the friendship group that helped me out of my depression. it was the first long term relationship i had been in and it is a time i can now look back on fondly. however, the break-up was messy and led to a lot of attachment issues that i am still unpacking today. the friendship group ended up being full of people i couldn’t trust, and since then my view of men has been warped. although these last few years have been hard, and i have ended up with people who haven’t treated me kindly, they have shown that throughout all of that unkindness, i am still able to keep pushing through and find light from not only myself, but others i trust too.
thanks to these evil people, i was able to write the poems that i gave to my friend lilly. we co-wrote the album and then found a community of musicians to help record all of the songs. so, even though it’s not ideal that there are people out there who have acted poorly towards me, there has been a creative and positive end to the negativity.
♡⸜(˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶)⸝♡ Lovely People ♡⸜(˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶)⸝♡
why focus on the negative people so much? i do that enough in the album! there are so many beautiful, wonderful people in my life who have helped me within this turbulent time. fuzzy or not, they are all so special to me.
starting all the way back in secondary school, when i first started feeling wobbly, my friendship group full of joy and abundant love was always there when i needed them. to this day they are still around and still as gorgeous. they will always listen when i have a 5 hour story i need to get off my chest.
my friends from my hometown who welcomed me when i needed someone. you will always be close to my heart. i was learning to trust friends again and i don’t think there was a better group of people to help me do that. i will forever be grateful and if anyone needs a spontaneous body-doubling day, i will be there.
my university friends have seen it all. every single update you sat through, every performance lesson where you would accompany the songs being played on the album, the unwavering support you all provided me when i couldn’t get out of bed and you dragged me up a hill. all of you have been so wonderful and i’ve truly found people who will be in my life forever.
there are so many friends who have held sick bowls, broken my nails, danced to ABBA, and given their time and love and energy being around me. you all mean so much to me and the next time I drink silver reign, i will attempt to not be such a mess. there are some people in this world who just understand my brain, and i am so lucky to have found so many people who have figured me out.
every single one of the musicians who have helped work on the album, thank you so much. being one of the first small little fuzzballs growing up, i have accumulated many honorary aunts and uncles, most of which have all been ridiculously talented. without the musical intuition and glorious performance skills from each and every one of you i don’t know how i would have done it. so thank you for making my silly little songs not so silly or little.
my family have always been stupidly supportive of my career choices as a creative and for that i will be so grateful. even though right now all of my art is miserable and it can be a bit hard to listen to, there has been an unwavering support from everyone. i am just so full of love and appreciation for every single one of you.
my little sister, you are a beautiful, fuzzy, excellent creature. every time i have needed anything, from huge amounts of emotional support to 15 minutes on the xBox, you have always been there to provide it for me. you’re a glorious person inside and out. i don’t know how people without little sisters do it. i also don’t know how people with little sisters who aren’t you do it. you are pretty good as a person generally.
♬⋆.˚ What’s Next? ♬⋆.˚
well…that’s for me to know
and for you to find out…
Lilly Hill 